Speculation

Lyrics

Don't blink, unrelenting speculations circulating.
A single image reappearing,
and it's not looking like it is soon to leave.

All the more I
started advancing towards imminent self-destruction.
After I feel creeping it up, crawling it up my
spine and my stomach is in vortex of delusion.
All it takes is no more than a second
to trigger response.

I plunge into a state of misery,
forgone dilemmas, attempts at plain prosperity.
Caught in a trap I built for you,
created a gap for me to fall through.

You know what I'm thinking?
I think I can't choose because you are holding me back.
Now I'm on the crossroads,
this time I know which way's the wrong one.

The issue is that the two in front are rotten
and I'm not really feeling like losing two years.
It just follows, it never quits
until you cut it off.

But never is time,
the right moment for it doesn't just appear.
It is there and we cannot grasp it.
And you wait, and then it's gone for a while.

Until it improves and makes a comeback.
Then all you can do is regret.

I plunge into a state of misery,
calling off the questions.
Forgone dilemmas, attempts at plain prosperity.
Caught in a trap I built for you,
it's just me, waiting to contribute.

And it is I.